祝福你

最近真的无聊到爆。唉，不爱读书的人却很贱的选了一个必须读很多书的科。又来到了一个鸟不生蛋的地方。郁闷啊！:P

话说刚刚去看了我前男友的部落格。发现他好像是有了新的对象了哦！为他感到好高兴 :D 祝福他这次可以找到一个会对他好的人 (:

曾经受伤，生气也厌恶过。现在却能释然的当朋友...

是时间久了，也是成熟了吧？

不过相比之下，现在这段感情我所放的心真的更多更多。虽然到现在，我还是不后悔。日后可能会伤得很重吧？

距离。还是五年半如此之久...

不懂未来的日子，我们是否会失联？不懂很久的以后，我们是否又会重逢？

才两个月，却真的好想你 <3

问世间，情为何物？

今天突然想了想。感情这事，很美丽不过也很恐怖。

两个人能怎么，就这样搭上线然后在一起，爱得死去活来的；分手过后一些日子，却再也对对方一点感情都没有了，甚至不再联络。

不奇怪吗？曾经的天长地久，就这样成了过眼云烟。

觉得好现实。

故事里，电影中，男女主角终是能排除万难、不顾一切的在一起；怎么到了现实世界，身边还是会看到这么多的分分合合？是不是在一起了，没有放心去经营那一段感情？还是从来没有爱过，只是形式上的憧憬着一段刻骨铭心的爱恋？

到底怎样才是爱上了呢？到底要多久后在一起，才是真心的呢？是要一见钟情；是要很快的走在一起；还是要花个十天半个月去了解对方？

不过还是觉得很神奇。是什么让两个人就这样触电？是什么让嘴角忍不住上扬？是什么会让自己留恋对方的怀抱？

不想放手，到底是还爱着；还是舍不得那个熟悉感？

懂得放手，究竟是成长了；还是从来没爱过？

2012 resolutions

Yea I know, it's almost 2 weeks into January and here I am, a lil' too late to be making new year resolutions. Still, late is better than never right?

I, Lee Yu Wei, will fulfill these 50 new year resolutions even if I get killed in the process. I will not let them go down the drain due to my lack of determination, like every other year. (;

1. See through project Vision Guardian Angel and write a newsletter/brochure sorta thing about it.

2. Raise 15k for the project, even if it takes a whole year to achieve.

3. Run a full marathon.

4. TRAIN for my full marathon, unlike last time ):

5. Climb Mt.kinabalu

6. Conquer Tahan! Roar!

7. Learn how to surf. :D

8. Get into a nightclub. Yea, I'm 20 and I've never even been to a club. I feel so naive. /:

9. Get a new hairstyle, which I already did, so I guess it's 49 to go! Wheeeee!

10. Dye my hair a funky color! I can't decide on purple or blue though. /:

11. Learn another language. I've always wanted to learn to write and read French (it sounds nasally when you speak it), or learn Italian or Spanish. Funny how I'll end up learning Indian language instead.

12. Travel. Bali, here I come!!!!! XD

13. Go on a camping trip. Even if it's only for a night.

14. Start saving money, so I can realize my dream of world travel.

15. Go bungee jumping! XD

16. Become less shy. Yea I may not come across as being so, but I'm shy. XD so for 2012, I'll hide in the corner less and join in more!

17. Get fit!

18. Overcome my insecurities, or learn to accept them. (:

19. Write 2 blog posts per month, even of it's about random crap. (like this one)

20. Write a book! xD

21. Get a weekend job that pays a good amount. (:

22. Learn how to appreciate.

23. Get my waist back to its original less than 24 inches size. /:

24. Hug more. (:

25. Write about my experience during expedition. No slacking off!

26. Do something crazy. (oh well, I'll think of what crazy thing to do...)

27. Self learn some breakdancing moves.

28. Run/walk/cycle a minimum of 15km every week. Even if it's on a treadmill.

29. Adopt an animal.

30. Dance in the rain.

31. Laugh until I cry.

32. Watch the sun rise at the beach and on top of a mountain.

33. Get in touch with long lost friends.

34. Study consistently everyday once I get into Uni. No more procrastinating and last minute studying.

35. Pass up my article on time every month.

36. Discover and write about more places in Malaysia!

37. Learn how to dive. :D

38. Go on an expedition! Raleigh! Grrrrr!

39. Be an IW staff!

40. Start my own business. Or costart one. Either one. XD

41. Spend more time with my family. (:

42. Start on the Law of Attraction workbook and follow through.

43. Look into the mirror everyday and ask myself, is this what I want to do for my life? If the answer is not, change!

44. Smile and be nicer to people.

45. Chat with a random stranger on a public transport.

46. Read 100 books and jot 'em down in my blog.

47. Organize an event.

48. Take a family photo without pulling any weird faces.

49. Take more photos of life.

50. The most important. To be who I want to be, not who others want me to be!

*wipes sweat off forehead* phew, 50 is a huge lot to come up with. But yeaaaa, I will see through every single one of them. X) wish me luck. *fingers crossed*

Once again, I prove the fact that I blog when I have something important to do. *ahem*exams*ahem*.

I tried to sign into my old blog just now. Just to, relive the memories. The days we had. The pranks we pulled. The times we cried and argued, only to find that it brought us closer together. The days we spent playing tennis in the rain. The nights we practiced the instrument over and over again until our hands ache. The afternoons we spent wasting our time in the library skipping practice. The hugs and tears during graduation. And the heartbreak I had once upon a time...

Well, they're gone.

The words I poured out. The blog bitching I did. They're just gone. Cause somewhere along the road Windows Live decided to erase the Spaces.

And now I'm left with regret for not saving them when I had a chance. I feel like wringing my own neck. Ugh.

Which brings me to this.

Regret.

I don't want to regret my life.

I don't want to study my ass off, get a good job just to graduate, be an employee and slave my life away.

I don't want to be those people, who has this engraved on their tombstone. "Buried at 60, dead at 30"

I don't want to simply EXIST.

"We're here to put a dent in the universe. Otherwise why else even be here?" - Steve Jobs

"I want to be someone great. To make a small difference in this world because of my existence." - Gidden (sorry for my crappy translation. :P)

Don't we all?

So why are we giving up on our dreams?

Priorities, you say. Expectations that you have to live up to. Society that you have to care for what they think. Parents, family that you have to pacify. Money that you don't have. Culture, the barrier that you can never overcome. Naysayers, planting seeds of doubts. Or just simply, I'm not enough.

Not great enough. Not capable enough. Not rich enough. Not confident enough. The list goes on.

And that's what left of our dreams. Just dreams.

Excuses schmexcuses.

"Doesn't matter what you've heard, impossible is not a word. It's just a reason, for someone not to try." - Kutless, What faith can do.

"Don't say: I can't do it. Say instead: How can I do it?" - Mal Emery, Your Right to be Rich.

As the old saying goes. There's a will, there's a way. Or else, how did Terry Fox ran more that 5000k in 143 days with one amputated leg? How did Air Asia came to be one of the 1st chosen flight companies in Malaysia and in some other countries too?

They had the passion that drove them to success. Just like everything else in life, you can't live without passion. How would you feel if you woke up every morning thinking "I don't want to go to work" for the remainder of your life? (Just like I do now. :P) You won't get far in what you do if you don't have that fire burning within you.

So, just go after what you love. If you really want something, you'll find a way to make it happen. At what cost. You'll mould your life around it. You'll find a way to convince others. You'll make it work. When you do something with a passion. It shows. And the obstacles will just fall away.

Live life with no regrets. There's only one chance. One life. Make it worth.

Fishtail

Not for the faint-hearted - Braving the Malaysia KTM chaos

This post was written without the intention of any offense. If any is taken, my apologies in advance.

Public transport.

Ah, everyone who has been on one have some experiences to share about it. Especially if you live to tell the stories of the Malaysia commuter train. And being a poor student with no vehicle stuck in the middle of nowhere, taking the commuter is the only way if you want to save money, albeit a bad choice.

First, you wait...

And wait...and wait...

For the trains that are never once on time. Or if you look at it from another perspective, it is on time. Why? There's this digital board at the platform with the arrival time of the train blinking at you. The time displayed on the digital board changes every few seconds, each time delaying the train to 10 or 15 minutes later. So in a way, the train always comes at the time shown. It is from firsthand experience I can say that it may be possible for a train that was scheduled to arrive at 2 to be delayed to sometime near 4. And nope, I'm not exaggerating. Just ask anyone who has been on the ktm.

What about schedules, you ask? Well, we do have train schedules, we just run it on Malaysian time. Which gives it an allowance of plus minus 1 hours to 2 hours uncertainty to the actual time.

And the train arrives...

Finally! Packed to the brim with people of all sizes. Now's the time you abandon every moral or ethics you ever have or learnt about in your lessons about queuing up. There should only be a first and foremost rule in your mind. SQUEEZE IN! Get in, find your corner and hold on with your life! Well, you may get lucky during the peak hours, when no effort is needed to get into the train. You just need to stand in the middle of a crowd and go with the flow. Don't worry, they'll bring you in. There was a time when I was literally swept off my feet by the crowd while trying to get in. Thank god that there was no space for me to fall as I was sandwiched between people, or else I would've been trampled to death.

p/s: I was in the ladies coach. So guys, never underestimate girl power! Grrrrrr!

Now that you're in...

Surrounded by sweaty bodies, all kinds of body odours and perfumes. You're standing next to a fat guy who is sweating profusely and because your hand is plastered on his, now your hand is slick with HIS sweat. You're afraid of breathing too deeply in case you get suffocated. There's no need for any handholds though, you can't fall even if you want to. The train wobbles a lil' from side to side as it moves, so you get to be part of a Mexican wave. Don't worry, it's to improve the companionship between fellow passengers. There'll also be the frequent bouts of electricity shortage where you'll be stuck in a dark carriage. With your sense of sight partially hindered, your other senses will be heightened. You can almost hear the wheezing of a person a few meters away and smell the fresh sweat leaking out of pores... then there's the heat of being cramped in a sea of bodies in a limited space...

Don't complain though, it's all for the bonding of fellow passengers. After all, what better way to bond than when you experience a harrowing experience together?

And just for future reference, remember to pee before you get into the train. It's not a pleasant feeling having something pressed on your full bladder. On second thought, if you DO pee on the train, at least you get breathing space as people will be too disgusted to get near you. You'll have to brave the humiliation though.

You reach your destination...

By focusing and listening hard to the crappy intercom, as you have absolutely no idea where you are when all you can see is a myriad of faces. Now, brace yourself as you'll need to part the crowds to get to the door. Just a heads up, passengers getting in will not wait for you to get out, so go for it! Like everything in life, your freedom is in your own hands. Huzzah!

For ladies...

Unless you're very very tall and can tower even over guys, I recommend the ladies' coach. There's nothing worse than having to spend the entire 2 hours journey with your nose shoved under some guy's armpit or directly in line to a mouth giving out disgusting odour. It's also not fun to have your ear breathed into. Not to mention there's that perv who will have a validate reason to feel you up. "It's so packed that I don't have anywhere else to put my hands!"

But then, being in the ladies' coach have its own cons. Like now, even as I'm furiously typing away on my phone, there's a lady who can't stop flicking her hair over my face. It's kinda hard to distinguish anything on the phone screen over the strands of hair.

KTM quotes

"I'm training to be a stuntman," says a guy who spent the entire 45 minutes journey standing on one leg with his hands on the train wall and his body inclined over a seated passenger at almost 45 degrees.

"hey, can you please hold this for me? I need to put my phone into my bag in case it falls and breaks."

"dude, there's no large enough gap for your phone to drop."

- This post was written by the author while stuck in a dark and hot carriage for TWO HOURS listening to the repeats of "Attention to all passengers, the train to Sg.Gadut will not be arriving on schedule. We can not guarantee when the train will reach as there is an electricity shortage at the Serdang KTM station." What can I say? Malaysia Boleh! -

Interpretation of the signboard:

- KILL ALL MEN

- DESTROY ALL COUPLES

- lesbians are encouraged

- single mothers are encouraged.

Fishtail Evonne